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Muse & Miscellany's avatar

May your life be so full of unconditional love one day that the knots in your chest dissolve and release that playful, carefree little girl to exist unapologetically. May you feel all the joy that this life has to offer. Thank you for sharing the most precious and beautiful parts of you!

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Freya's avatar

This is so beautiful. I think I’ll print this off to read over and over <3 so so kind of you, thank you so much xxx

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Hiba's avatar

Wow this was just perfect! As an eldest daughter with a younger sister I can relate to this so much, you actually made me tear up.

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Freya's avatar

Im so glad you saw yourself in this piece <3

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Kylee's avatar

oh my I was not expecting to relate to something so deeply. So much of this is everything I’ll never have the right words for but you put it so beautifully. I have to no words other than wow

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Freya's avatar

AHHH your comments just make my day, this was lovely xxxx

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whatjodiesthinking's avatar

What a beautiful piece of writing. I'm also an eldest daughter who has a younger sister and, although our age gap is much smaller than you and your sister, I still see so much of myself in her, and so much of what I wish I could be if in absence of my eldest daughter status (that I do believe I have set for myself). I have just subscribed and can't wait to read more from you!

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Freya's avatar

Thank you so much <3333

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Sena's avatar

this is the most beautiful thing I have read in a while… i’m also the eldest daughter with a younger sister and a younger brother, so I related this so much. actually, i cried. thanks for writing this and reminding me that I’m not alone. much love <33

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Freya's avatar

Oh I'm so happy it resonated with you xxx

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Lara's avatar

This had my heart in my throat. So tender and deep. I may not have a younger sister, but I did resonate with what it would feel like to let the wounded inner child out. Excellent job!

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Freya's avatar

Lara, this is such a lovely comment, thank you xx

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Jahanavi 🫧's avatar

There’s something so perfectly fragile and raw about this piece, proud of you for exposing the delicate parts of yourself <3

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Freya's avatar

Thank you so much!!!! <333

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Wilder's avatar

As a youngest sister, this gifted some empathy towards my oldest sister. Thank you for sharing.

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Freya's avatar

That makes me so happy to hear 🤍

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Typed And Griped's avatar

This was gorgeously written and so bravely honest. I resonate so much with how you describe the loss of youth and jealousy to siblings who have had it different to you. Thank you for writing it ❤️

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Freya's avatar

Thank you so much!!! I’m so glad it resonated with you 🤍🤍

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ananyadissociating's avatar

This was beautiful and terrifying in it's entirety. It peeled back the bandaid on a lot of raw and mangled wounds. and I am going to think about this forever. <3

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Freya's avatar

I will be thinking of this comment forever! <3

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krista's avatar

❤️

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zi 🪲's avatar

oh my christ this is beautiful

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Sarah J's avatar

Freya, I feel like crying. You have no idea how impeccable your writing is. This was a piece like no other. You're living proof of pain being subdued by the pen. You are healing people girl!!

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Freya's avatar

Sarah this comment made my day. Thank you so much!! <3

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Tamara Foster's avatar

Beautiful! As an older sister and the mother to a teen daughter, this really resonated.

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Freya's avatar

I am SO glad it resonated!!

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leti's avatar

my goodness i was not expecting to relate to something this much! my sister just turned ten as well and we have a 8 year gap, every time i look at her i see the girl i used to be, and i’m forever bitter that my little sister didn’t get to meet her. thank you for writing such a beautiful piece, felt this one so deeply 💓

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Freya's avatar

I am so glad you feel seen in this piece xxxx

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Soph's avatar

Freya, I'm lost for words. It's 10:07am and you have me sobbing in the office on my sneaky Substack break.

This is the most beautiful piece I have read in a long time (arguably, ever). Thank you for being so vulnerable, and for opening up your deepest thoughts. As someone of a similar age, I felt my inner child – right in the depths of my stomach – also weeping alongside me as I read this.

I genuinely can't put into words the response this piece evoked, so I'll just thank you again for sharing it.

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Freya's avatar

OH MY GOD this is so sweet!!!!! Thank you so so much for reading and for such a lovely comment!! I hope your inner child feels as seen as mine does xxx

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Soph's avatar

PS – Would you mind me DMing you? I read something about your inner child years ago that has stuck with me and I'd love to share it.

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Freya's avatar

PLEASE DO!! I would love to hear! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

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